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The Path to Healing

Teachings - Damage

It is to recognize that the self as a young child does not judge the self; the self is outwardly seeking, the self is love, enthusiasm, energies that draw others to the self – until the bodies from previous lifetimes join with the self. It is then that all previous lesson failures are available to the inner Teacher to draw forth energies that cause the self to take notice of that which is occurring around the self with something more than mere curiosity; for it is a child that is curious, that is willing, that is able to experience all things without exclusion for there is little to no fear. Fear is implanted, imposed upon the small being by those who guide the young consciousness – those known as the parents, the caregivers, the siblings, the peers; fear is unnatural to the new being.

Once the bodies from previous lifetimes join with the current bodies, those fears, phobias, addictions – indeed behaviors that have been carved steadily, deeply, throughout the psyche - begin to appear, begin to dominate, begin to change who this young being was just hours, days, weeks, months, one or two short years prior. Now the thoughtforms that have been created by the self, nurtured, watered, overly fed, lifetime after lifetime, have rejoined with the self. A passing remark by a caregiver or a parent, prior to the time when the child can think rationally, has been elevated, provided with tremendous importance, for it is the energies activated, drawn forth by the inner Teacher, that have emphasized the importance of this event. The self believes that the parent has damaged the self; the self takes words that could have been stated with a chuckle and states them in a voice of deadly seriousness – that which damages the self deeply, reawakening the wound of previous lifetimes. The self’s behavior begins to shift based upon this reawakening. The self’s actions and reactions begin to follow those carved for the self previously through many lifetimes.

It is important for all students to recognize that the belief system did not originate in this lifetime; indeed, all are composites, all have lived many, many lifetimes. All have experienced many, many things. All have learned many lessons. All have failed many others - that which continues to distress the self, that which continues to result in lesson failure in this lifetime, are those lessons that have yet to be learned. The belief system is the source of all energies that result in failure for the student – failure to embrace that it is the self’s thinking that waters, that nurtures the belief system states that the student has yet to experience adequately in order to reveal that which is faulty that lies within. The Teacher will continue to draw forth lesson after lesson after lesson in an attempt to show the student that which is believed by the self, that which is known to be faulty by the inner Teacher, that which has yet to be discovered as such by the self.

This is the view of the ego, “If you love me you are with me. If you love me, you support me. If you love me, you agree with me on all things. To tell me that I was wrong is unwelcome” - and, with some lesson plans, cause for the irreparable damage done to the relationship; for most selves, most individuals, are not interested in truth – they are interested in winning, they are interested in competition, they are interested in being proven as better than. How is the self that is damaged by another better than the other, you say? Well, of course, the answer is that the self would never treat another the way that the self has been treated.

It is to recognize that failed lesson creates negative energy that is embedded within the body. The accumulation of failure, without desire to correct the actions of the self to those that would better endorse the physical body, results in illness. The typical student has been storing negative energies within the bodies for decades prior to awakening. The body begins to rebel at this storage; when the quantities have achieved certain levels, disease becomes more likely. It is as the adjustments were made for yourself and Te' Auna – dense energies were released from areas where they had been stored for decades – pain…the emotion of pain, released, freeing the body to adjust itself back to its natural state.

Emotion is stored within the body when it is not understood; emotion that is understood is released. It is important for each student to recognize that failed lesson is reflected throughout the body, that the inner Teacher has done its best to store these energies in areas that would provide clue to the self of the lessons that are being failed. Often, other areas need be utilized to prohibit debilitating disease. It is for the student to ask in the meditative state –“What is this pain? What does it represent? How may I understand the lesson at hand? Please present another and another and another, until I see that which you are trying to illustrate for me. Unfortunately, the typical student becomes upset, focused upon the physical malady, determined to eliminate the malady versus understanding the reason for its presence. It is important for each student to ask the inner Teacher if there is anything that can be done by the self to aid the physical body and to then turn the attention to providing just that, so that the physical body can support the goals of the consciousness. It is partnership that is needed between the self and the physical body, for if the physical body has been informed that the self is indeed desirous of learning the lessons, disease can be held at bay, awaiting the time that the self has determined that the life experience is acceptable to the self as it stands and that change is no longer desirable. The goal of the lifetime is to learn – the body is programmed to teach. As the self determines that the self is willing to embrace the lessons for the self, is indeed desirous of changed behaviors, energies that hold the potential for damage to the bodies can then be released.

It is to view the lesson plan, to recognize that the self’s response is indeed programmed and that forceful shifting of the attention is necessary in the moment of engagement – to turn the attention upon the self immediately, to refuse the ego’s demand for attention upon the other, to recognize that the lesson belongs to the self at the second of engagement. To embrace the self, to embrace others – the self cannot truly be embraced until others have been embraced as well. It is to recognize that to embrace another means that the self understands the lesson plan – the self understands that all negativity experienced by the self is due to failed lesson for the self or another for whom the self is embracing the lesson - taking the lesson upon the self, rather than recognizing that it belongs to another. Rather, the individual is focused upon the damage done to the self, blaming the other for damaging the self, rather than recognizing that the other has failed no one other than the self. Service has been provided to the self so that the self may see how another responds to lesson failure, to then examine the self to observe the self’s own failures, to determine if correction need be made. The failure of the self to cast off those energies given to the self, placed upon the self by another who was failing, is lesson indeed.

It is not believed that you will have difficulty in forgiving yourself my sister. Do you understand this statement?

Student: No

It is the ego that has you convinced that you are unable to forgive yourself; you are just beginning to realize the damage that you have done. Do you understand?


Student: I see

Forgiveness of the self is not on the near horizon for you my sister, for recognition of the self’s behaviors, the self’s actions, need be made – understanding need be garnered. It is then that forgiveness is provided. To forgive the self prior to achieving understanding indicates that the lesson will be scheduled for you once again in future and shall be failed once again. Do you understand?

Student: I would prefer not to go there; I would prefer to get it done now.

The purpose of this conversation my sister is to indicate to you that you have embraced the story of the ego – that the self is unable to forgive another because the self cannot forgive the self. It is to state to you with emphasis that the self is not concerned truly about being able to forgive the self. The self is desirous of elimination of these feelings. The first step is to forgive another. The first step is to forgive another. The first step, my sister, is to forgive another by recognizing the damage that has been done by the self, whether in similar fashion or differently is of no consequence. Do you understand?

Student: Where do you suggest I begin?

To recognize that it is lesson – failed lesson – that causes the self to damage another, to recognize that the self is not the only self that has failed lesson. It is to step forth and to say, “I have been damaged by your actions” – to explain to the other how the self has been damaged; for it is in the explanation that the self will begin to see that the self has damaged others in similar fashion. Do you see, my sister, that by not speaking, not extending this information to another but rather, providing the other with the false face – one that says, “Yes, of course I forgive you” – that the self has failed to do the work necessary for true understanding?

Student: I see that now. Thank you. Is there a particular situation that you would like me to begin with?

The judgments will guide you my sister. When you find that you are thinking of another, when you find that you are speaking of another negatively, the starting point has been provided to you.

Recognition of the self’s inability to embrace another due to lesson failure is critical to the student who walks the path to healing, for the self who fails to forgive another shall find the self as the unforgiven in future. To understand that all humans came to learn and that all humans fail the majority of their existence provides knowledge to the student that need be understood, felt deeply within the self by seeing the self in all others, for only then does forgiveness flow readily and easily from the heart for all those who have damaged the self in the past, those that will damage the self in the present, and those that may attempt to damage the self in future. Damage is perception that has been distorted, for damage, when viewed appropriately, is service.

Recognizing the damage that the self’s ungrateful attitude causes to others is critical for one who seeks to eliminate future karmic callings. Recognition that the self is ungrateful, that the self treats the teacher abominably, indicates that the teacher is trying to draw to the self’s attention that the self treats others abominably as well, that gratitude is lacking, that damage is indeed being incurred upon others.

The Teacher has sought the elimination of the creation of future karmic callings, yet the student continues to create such - failing to recognize the bite that is provided to all those surrounding the self who seek to aid, failing to recognize the viciousness of the attack, of words that are unleashed upon another who merely seeks to aid. Failure to see the rabid nature of the self’s own ego, the viciousness of the response provided to one who has tentatively approached the self, due to the self’s own invitation, to aid. It is these individuals that will stop approaching the self once it is recognized that the self has changed the self’s mind and is no longer seeking assistance but has returned to the desire to be left alone, has returned to the previous behaviors, indicating that there is no invitation extended to others who think or feel differently from the self.

I am Osiris. It is my duty to draw forth those energies that lie within to thwart the self’s progress, to expose them to the view of the self; for only then may choice truly be made to maintain the behaviors, the responses of the self, thereby endorsing the lesson plan, or to commit, to dedicate the self - all energies – towards change of the behaviors. The student who fails to choose change once the behaviors have been exposed is the student that shall suffer karmic repercussions. It is important for all to understand that the student that is blind to the self is the student that is rarely punished, even when the self’s behavior damages another. It is when the student is cognizant of the self’s behavior and the behavior continues to be endorsed, due to the self’s blindness, that karmic callings are then scheduled, for it is only through suffering that the student then determines it is time to change. The teacher, who has been provided with permission to draw forth all that which lies within, is diligent in their pursuit of all that which lies within.

When the student fails to see the self and energies are cast off towards another, the result is multiple lesson failure; for others have now been impacted by the self’s failure and often karmic calling scheduled for the self in future, so that the self may be unjustly accused, unfairly convicted, sentenced for life without judge or jury outside of the self. It is the student who believes that others intentionally damage others that is often the student who does intentionally damage others. The student that is able to understand that all are journeying forth to learn all that this planet has to offer, recognizing that errors in judgment are made by all every day, until the self awakens, until the self decides to invoke awareness the majority of the time, and these errors begin to be corrected.

The student that is able to look at the self’s past, to see all the players, to see those that the self perceived has damaged the self, to see those that the self knows has damaged others – and to see the selves that each have damaged each, to examine the feelings inside of hatred, anger, resentment, irritation, frustration, sorrow – to draw them forth, to taste them, reliving each situation to the fullest with the taste in the mouth and then to see the self’s face over the face of the other, to hear the self saying the words spoken by the other to another; for it is the human condition that when one is damaged by another, the same damage will be incurred upon another if the lesson has not been learned, if forgiveness has not been extended. This is karma.

To understand the line energies of Shame is to understand the fundamentals of the lesson plans that flow from this parent energy. Making the recognition that power is being proven, not sought, is important. Am I understood?

Sol: Would you please amplify that?

The student of Shame is certain of the self’s power – would you agree my brother?

Sol: Yes I agree with that and I would also add from personal experience that often power is sought but not achieved and that becomes another problem within itself.

Indeed. However, the student of Shame feels quite confident that the self’s power will be proven when the lesson plan has been, shall we say, opened. Do you agree my sister?

Student: I do. Shame is cocky.

It is to recognize that if Shame were to question the self’s power it would be unable to proceed forth with most of the behaviors that color this particular lesson plan. Do you understand?

Student: I do because I have recollection of people telling me that I am a very powerful person and me saying “What are you talking about? I don’t feel that.” And then learning about the lesson plan of Shame and seeing how it’s demonstrated, provided insight into a real lack of power.

I shall ask you my sister, to focus upon the lesson plan of Shame and the remark that was just made – that the self did not feel powerful even though others stated such. You have always felt powerful my sister, if you were to be honest.

Student: Exactly…exactly…which goes to the hiding.


Student: And the mask that Shame wears that it isn’t dangerous and it isn’t treacherous and it isn’t malicious or manipulative or controlling.

It is feigning weakness my sister that is a ploy of Shame. Do you understand?

Student: I do – thank you.

Do you understand my brother?

Sol: Let me restate my understanding of what aspect of what you said …and that is that if the student who has Shame does not feel powerful in a particular circumstance, then Shame really is not at work in that particular circumstance for that student.

You are correct.

Sol: Thank you. I understand. That’s really a very, very interesting aspect of Shame about which I had no idea. Thank you.

Recognition that the student of Shame is powerful, capable of destroying all that stand in its way… would you say that this recognition is important my brother Sol An Ka?

Sol: Yes

My sister (student)?

Student: Absolutely


Student: Shame damages, perpetually damages and without awareness of it, damages obliviously, thinking nothing about it…just doing it. Becoming aware is vitally important to ceasing the damaging of others and getting a handle on that.

Sol: I would add to that that feeling powerful generates a lot of energy to be powerful.

It is the belief, my brother, in the self’s power - that is, the energies that support the belief that the self is all-powerful, that the self is correct in all things, that the other need be set straight; it is this thinking that drives the student of Shame. Do you understand?

Sol: Yes I do, all too well.

The student with the lesson plan of Shame perceives that all others outside of the self are predators against the self – all others are out to get the self, to damage the self; no other has suffered like the self has at the hands of others – the self must always respond rapidly, viciously, to place others outside of the circle of the self, letting them know that they cannot damage the self and if attempt is made, the self will suffer indeed. This lesson plan is embedded within the lesson plan of Separation as well and all students who have the lesson plan of Shame, the lesson plan of Separation, have the ability to damage another physically, mentally or emotionally. It is to look to the other lesson plans to determine how this individual will attempt to damage another most frequently, for it is information that is of great value to the student who seeks to stop creating karmic callings for the self in future.

Recognizing that the lesson plan is focused upon protection of the self, the student that is able to state, “I just don’t care anymore” has taken a major step forward towards defusing the energies that lie within to defend, to protect, to damage all those who would dare expose the self. These lessons are most difficult for the student, as well as all those who surround the student, for the student oftentimes is desirous of prohibiting these behaviors, yet the energies are quite forceful and often escape unnoticed, until damage has been done once again. It is to recognize that the self need be aware, that the self need understand the underlying cause of the release of these energies - it is to defend, it is to protect illusion.

It is for all to recognize that the lesson plan is controlled through the mental body – the mind has been programmed to ensure that all experiences needed shall indeed be experienced, shall indeed be garnered, whether in reality or through illusion. It should not be difficult for anyone present to understand that much of what is experienced by the self is illusory. If the self has ever been falsely accused of the self’s desire, of the self’s aim by another, the self can readily see how another can mistake the actions of the self. Although most are capable of this recognition, most fail to see that the self has quite likely mistaken the actions of others and qualified them as damaging to the self – purposefully; this is not a mistake, for the mental body has ensured that that which was needed has now been experienced. Drawing forth this recognition should ease the difficulty with which the self reviews the self’s past and those players who have seemingly damaged the self, for much of what has been experienced by the bulk of humanity has merely been a trick of the mind. Do all understand my words?

It is to recognize that the self believes “It’s about me.” It is this that the mind uses to convince the self that it is indeed about the self.

All humans provide service by playing the dark role or by presenting the self to determine if the self has learned the lesson or if the self will once again choose to be damaged. Until the self can present the self as service and refuse damage, the lesson has not yet been learned.

I am Osiris. I am the Teacher that draws forth all that which lies within the self that may or may not damage another. “I love you my students with all that I have to give to you” and I state for each to understand that this statement precedes the drawing forth of negativity that lies within that I am most desirous of resolution.

The final teaching this day shall address the student’s ability to see the self. Suffice it to say that the majority of students are unable to do so without the direct assistance of one who is pursuing the path that will return the self to its original state of divinity. It is important to understand that the majority of humanity is upon this path; the majority of humanity believes the self to be good, to be upon a worthy path – one that is more love than darkness. However, it is indeed the majority of humanity that seeks outward for answer whenever lesson is experienced; this seeking is typically performed from a negative stance. The experience provided to another is typically jaded, skewed, presenting a picture that informs the other that the self has been damaged, that the self was unworthy of such treatment, that the self is indeed victim. This is then endorsed by the other, for it is believed that to be in close relationship with another, that the other is always endorsed, the other’s side always taken, the other’s way of being always defended. This is the view of the ego, “If you love me you are with me. If you love me, you support me. If you love me, you agree with me on all things. To tell me that I was wrong is unwelcome” - and, with some lesson plans, cause for the irreparable damage done to the relationship; for most selves, most individuals, are not interested in truth – they are interested in winning, they are interested in competition, they are interested in being proven as better than.

How is the self that is damaged by another better than the other, you say? How is the self that is damaged by another better than the other, you say? Well, of course, the answer is that the self would never treat another the way that the self has been treated. The self has determined that the self is better than others. When the self is informing another of another’s behavior, the self restates the behavior of the other, so that the self appears to be more damaged, so that the self appears to be the victim, so that the self’s culpability appears to be nominal or non-existent. This is all so that the self can appear to be better than the other. The self appears to be better than the other because the self would proclaim loudly to all that will listen that the self would never behave in such a way.

It is important for all students to recognize that to diminish another by speaking of them incorrectly, dishonestly, brings karma to the self in future – that the self will be falsely accused, that the self will be negatively spoken of, unjustly, due to the actions of the self. It is competition that drives the self to diminish another, particularly one who has threatened the self, whose halo shines more brightly than that belonging to the self. It is to speak honestly of the self. It is to speak honestly of another. It is to convey that which has been experienced honestly and if the self is unable to do so, to not speak of it at all. The garnering of karma is mandatory in these situations, for the image of another has been damaged, due to the self’s activities.

To understand karma is to understand the self – the mind, the emotions, the physical bodies are all in need of lesson; all are programmed to draw forth that which is needed to teach the consciousness…indeed, the consciousnesses, housed within. It is important to remember that there are no mistakes, that that which is experienced by the self, that that which is experienced by another was indeed planned, was indeed necessary, was indeed scheduled - if not today, next week, next month, next year, next lifetime. Those who question the experiences of the self by bemoaning the experience, by wailing, gnashing of the teeth, causing great distress for the self as well as those around the self, are those who do not understand karma, are those who do not understand their purpose for being in this dimension, are those that will fail again and again and again.