Teachings - Know the Self
To all students who walk the path of healing I greet you in the name of the Father.
The path is long and winding, often regarded as interminably long and difficult, one that provides challenge, one that brings little joy until the self begins to understand the goal of the lifetime – to know and to heal the self. This is the goal of all lifetimes – to know the self, to understand the self, and to begin to heal the wounds that have been created due to the self’s response to lesson presentation in this, as well as in previous lifetimes. The recognition of the lesson plan for the self is a gift, received by few in number, for the self is rarely capable of understanding the guidance provided by the self’s Teacher. Those damaged portions of the self continue to struggle to maintain the hold upon the self that insures failure; failure has been experienced thousands upon thousands of times and the self’s response honed, guaranteeing that the self will not see the self, regardless of the number of mirrors called by the Teacher.
It is only when the student begins to awaken and states with certainty, “I am prepared to see myself. I am prepared to do all that which is requested of me, for my goal is to know, to understand and thereby heal myself in this lifetime. I seek the support of my Teacher to aid me in maintaining my presence in this dimension until I have learned all possible to provide me with foundation excellent in which to begin my next incarnation.” Lifetime after lifetime the Teacher guides the self to embrace and to understand the self, to begin to change the tide of that which lies deep within the self that is more desirous of failure than of success. When the student awakens, truly awakens and states to the Teacher, “I seek to learn” – the Teacher will test the student many times to make certain that the will and the fortitude have been endorsed sufficiently to allow traversal of the path once again.
All challenge provided to the self is intended to build, to strengthen the will, to ensure that the wall of fortitude is as impenetrable as possible. The student that surveys the self and sees the weakness within the self need step forth and seek assistance from the Teacher directly, from others that the Teacher may draw to you, so that the next step and the next step may be realized as the weakness is transmuted to strength. It is only through the recognition of the self that this becomes possible; it is the duty of the lesson plan to blind the self from the self, to prohibit the self from recognition of that which lies within. It is indeed to know, to understand the self that endorses healing.
It has been my honor to join you this day for the sharing of wisdom. I am with you as I am with all consciousnesses who inhabit the Earth at this time. I am known as Kuthumi.
It is the first day of the new year – that which many celebrate around the world, that which many believe that the self can be different ‘this year’. This belief, this thinking is typically abandoned within the first month for most, for the ties to the past, love of the lifestyle, the desire to be loved by others prohibits the self from seeing that which lies within to prohibit progress upon the spiritual path. It is not possible for an individual to change without support, without an understanding of that which need be changed internally. Most humans attempt to change through divorce, through change of employment, by moving the self to another location, thinking and oftentimes believing that these shifts will cause the self to be different; rather, the self has drawn to the self a new set of lessons – one that the Teacher presents to prove to the self that abandoning the lesson is never the solution.
It is important that each student recognize the possibility of drawing forth new energies for the self simply by changing the thinking – that all days of the year are indeed the first, for the self can change at any time simply by stating to the self, “This is indeed the first day of my new life. I seek comfort. I seek support. I seek happiness. Nothing in my life provides me with happiness. How do I accomplish my goal to be happy?” It is to first recognize that happiness is a construct built by society, social consciousness so to say, of things that will make the self happy – a mate, a fine home, a fast vehicle, vacations to exotic locations, expensive clothing - the baubles, the rewards of success. It is unfortunate that success is rarely recognized for the individual who has overcome negative behaviors – one who has begun to love the self, one who has stepped forth and stated the self’s intention to love others wholeheartedly, without reservation, without fear, knowing that the Teacher will draw forth the lessons that need be learned.
Belief is the deep-seated thinking that is provided little survey by the self; that which lies within to call forth ego to protect, to defend, to guard against all those from the outside who seek to challenge the self’s beliefs. The belief system is maintained by all humans and is merely the accumulation of the self’s determination of that which is most appropriate for the self. Often, this determination is made care-less of another - without care, without concern, without thought for another. The defense of the belief system is the duty of the ego - is the duty fulfilled by the ego. The belief system is the target of the Teacher, for it is the desire of the Teacher to expose all that which lies within to prohibit the student from understanding the self.
The belief system is the accumulation of judgment throughout the lifetime – judgment of the self, judgment of another that has been embraced by and for the self, judgment that prohibits the self from choosing ever again, for the belief system represents the choice that is preferred by the ego - it is this that is accessed and employed by the self, whenever choice becomes available. When beginning to walk the path to healing, the student begins to observe the belief system, to determine the value of each belief to the self. Is this truth? Does this represent who I am? Does this say that I am a spiritual being? That I am one that is desirous of assisting another?
For most who step forth to walk the path to healing, the belief system is unrecognized, for it has not been surveyed for many years. The self can state what the self believes, what the self desires – the words flow smoothly for they have been used hundreds, if not thousands of times, to tell another who the self believes the self to be. It is deeper examination of the story that begins to reveal that the self maintains beliefs that are of no value to one who walks the path to healing; they are, in fact, detrimental and will deter the student indefinitely as long as these beliefs are maintained. It is to understand that the belief system is that which is often referred to as the self - for the self, the personality, is comprised of thought, of action, of judgment; all these things combine into what is referred to as belief - the experiences of the self have resulted in belief that cancels choice in future.
The self that fails to check in with the Self periodically, “What is that feeling? I do not like it. Why is it present? How can I eliminate this impression of denseness?” Checking in to feel all that the body is willing to share with the self – the human being has become proficient at ignoring the signals of the body, particularly those that are subtle.
I seek for you to understand my brother (Sol) that your body is going through many, many changes at this time; I ask that you cast off concern for the readings that you feel are indicative of a spiraling downward condition, for this simply is not so. It does take time for the body to correct itself but correct itself it shall; it is in need of positivity, for you to embrace it, to love it, to nurture it, to speak to it, to acknowledge that the self created the difficulties that the body can and will overcome, as long as the lessons are learned.
It is important for you my sister, to not over-engage in emotion, for the emotional body is quite strong within you; it seeks chaos – the highest highs and the lowest lows. It is to remember that when emotion is felt, that you open the heart purposefully and you state to the self, “Does this belong to me? Do I truly feel this deeply about this experience?”
It is the nature of the individual that is being challenged, that need be observed. Does one become silent? Does one become irritated, frustrated, angry, impatient, demanding, unforgiving? Once the nature has been determined it is to observe the character that draws forth the behaviors that are then classified as this response to pressure. The character merely represents the remedy – that which is believed to eliminate the challenge being imposed upon the self; if the self fails to recognize the appearance of the character and chooses to endorse the behaviors, the Teacher has been informed that the student has chosen or has chosen not to choose.
It is suggested that each observe the self so that identification, recognition, of the most dominant character can be made; the behaviors utilized to protect the self need be catalogued and understood. Why does the self endorse these behaviors, rather than opening the self to the lesson, changing the behaviors so that the lesson may be learned? Why does the self continue to choose defense and protection? There is reason for each; until this reason has been uncovered, the behaviors will only be altered slightly. Are there questions regarding this teaching?
Sol: If the goal is to understand the reasons that the character has for defense and protection and the character is rooted in the composite self, how do we pull that information from the composite self to get back to the core reasons or beliefs?
The behaviors are firmly rooted within the characters, my brother. You could actually state that the character was created by the behavior, each character having appropriated particular behaviors, potentially enhancing the behaviors through many lifetimes. For example, one who is self-righteous may enhance self-righteousness with belligerence, with belittling, with acidic humor, or with threat to another, whether mental, emotional or physical threat. This character’s root is self-righteous; however, many other behaviors have been added to enhance the character’s effectiveness.
Do you recognize the character that likes to state the obvious?
Loereve: I haven’t in the past…as it’s being pointed out, I can go back and see it where I had not recognized it before.
It is this that irritates the other, my brother. Can you understand why this response is brought forth to you with such great frequency?
Loereve: If I were to hazard a guess it was…to come across as not listening, perhaps.
Indeed. I shall ask you to focus upon this, to begin to identify the character, for it is only through identification that the character can be eliminated – the behaviors of the character. Do you understand?
Loereve: Is there anything you would like to add to my character of “stating the obvious”?
It is your desire to be right my brother, your desire to be recognized as astute; the character that states the obvious draws forth derision and disrespect, rather than that which is being sought. It is for the self to listen to another, to recognize that when another is sharing it is not critical for you to be right, for you to be recognized as astute - it is merely to listen, to allow the other to speak and for you to feel that which is being shared. It is the mind that interferes, that wishes to respond to the other so that the other recognizes that you understand. It is inappropriate support – often, inappropriate endorsement as well, that is utilized by this character. Do you understand?
Loereve: Yes, please continue.
It is for you to observe the character, to understand why it is present and to determine how the behavior can be shifted in future to disallow its presence.
It is to recognize two things my sister. That your need for others up to this moment has been so that they can endorse your activities, your behaviors. Do you understand this?
Student: I do, yes.
The second recognition is that you prefer to be alone. Do you understand this?
Student: I do
And so, your fear of being alone – how do you reconcile this with your preference to be alone?
Student: The first thing that comes to mind is to be of service…that somehow that’s the bridge…and also a balance, to make sure that I have time alone and time with people I really want to be with, that I really want to spend time with…to be here, to be with my best friend.
It is for all to recognize the dichotomy that has been created by the characters, to keep the self dissatisfied with the self’s current life experience; this is what I am attempting to bring forth to you my sister. Do you understand?
Student: I see…I do. There’s a “should”…I have a “should”…
Indeed.
Student: That somehow it’s incorrect for me to prefer to be by myself – that there’s something wrong with me because I prefer to be by myself.
It is to recognize that there is a balance that cannot often be struck while the self is in the unhealed state. It is the time that the self spends alone in introspection, in surveying the self, in surveying the self’s responses, in surveying the self’s characters, that can be of tremendous benefit – much moreso than providing service to another, much moreso than being present with others where the focus is outside of the self. Do you understand?
Student: I do – thank you.
It is for all to recognize that the characters yearn for excitement, for activity – to go, to do, to be a part of something outside of the self; it is the characters that create the dichotomy that states the self is not all right because the self prefers to not do, to not go, to not be a part of. The characters push the self outside where the self is uncomfortable, where the characters need be employed in order for the self to get through the experience. Do all understand my words?
All: Yes, thank you.
It is to recognize that the true self lies within and that the yearning to know and to heal the self, to love, honor and respect the self above all others first is necessary; to endorse the desire of the self, when it is not to the detriment of another, is critical to the student who walks the path to healing. Failure to recognize that which is sought by the true self results in the presence of characters and it is the characters that dominate the life experience. The spiritual path can be boring indeed; it is critical for each student to recognize that excitement typically indicates the presence of a character.
To determine who the self is becoming requires the student to focus upon the self, to seek the assistance of those around the self and to welcome all that which is provided to the self that conflicts with the self’s own belief about who the self is believed to be. Failure to seek the opinion of another by asking, “How do you see me?” indicates that the self prefers the story provided to the self by the characters that have been created in order to defend and to protect the self’s false image.
To view the self impartially is impossible; oftentimes, to garner impartial view of the self from another can be equally impossible, for the other may have ‘an ax to grind’ or may seek to soothe the self with an appraisal that states that the behavior of the self is all that could be expected due to the response of another. The provision of truth to another is rare, for the characters have convinced the self that truth will diminish the relationship, will destroy the feelings of love and support, will not be welcomed by the other. The self will be punished for telling the truth; therefore, the character steps forth, informing the other that the self would have conducted the self in similar fashion, stating that the other did all that was possible thereby ensuring lesson failure – current, as well as lesson failure future, for the other has now been reinforced, told in fact that the self’s behavior was appropriate and decision will now be made due to the honor and respect afforded to the individual who has spoken falsely to the self. Do all understand my words?
All: Yes, I do – thank you.
It is the self’s failure to step forth, to eliminate the characters, stating, “I shall speak truth. It may not be welcomed. It may in fact damage my relationship if it is ill-received but I must be true to myself and I must be true to the other. I must speak truth at all times, regardless of that which is reaped.”
It is the composite self that diminishes the confidence, for it is the damaged portions of the self that represent many, many previous lifetime lesson failures. To survey the self means to understand that the self must separate the feelings that emanate from the damaged portions of the self - the composite, the egoic side or nature of the self; failure to do so causes the self to embrace the feelings, the beliefs that have simply been carried forward from previous lifetimes. These beliefs are all provided with characters, so that they may be paraded out before the self, seen clearly, so that the self may begin to choose to eliminate the belief that no longer belongs to the self - that potentially has never belonged to the current self – before it overtakes and becomes a part of the current self.
Once the current self identifies with the character, once the current self endorses, makes excuses, provides rationale and reason for the character’s presence, it is far more difficult to eliminate the behaviors, for it is often found that the current self likes the characters, likes the emotion – potentially, the roller-coaster emotion - that is felt each time the character enters and exits the life experience. The self that is unwilling to survey the self deeply, to confess that the self likes the characters, to confess that the characters bring excitement, feeling, into the life experience that is desirable, states that the self is not yet prepared to choose or to change the behaviors, to be different. Recognizing the characters, deciding that which is brought into the life experience by each character that may have been wholly embraced - that may in fact be desired by the current self - is necessary. It is only then that determination can be made as to whether the character will be diminished in strength or endorsed in future, wholeheartedly, by the current self.
I state to each of you – I shall never tell you who you are; it is for you to determine who you are and to state such to myself. It is then that I shall test, make certain that you are who you say you are; for it is this that is my purpose - to teach you to know the self. There are others that shall judge you to determine if the lessons have indeed been learned as they should be; it is I that tests your knowledge of the self – that brings forth example to you to determine …do you know who you are? Do you understand who you are being? Is this who you desire to be? For if it is, my tasking is complete; if it is not, it is my duty to continue to bring forth that which remains hidden from the self.
Those consciousnesses who have chosen to tread the path back to the light are provided with many teachers; I am the Teacher (provided to those students) that brings forth the darkness within, thus my additional name…the label, “the prince of darkness”. It is to draw forth the darkness within by bringing forward to the self those who contain the same darkness within; it is certain to create difficulty for both individuals - the typical response is to dislike the other, is to focus upon the other, is to blame the other, to deny that the same darkness resides within the self. This is an unfortunate result of course; however, it is of no consequence to myself, for darkness is throughout this planet. I shall simply bring another and another and another and another and another individual forth until the student learns, until the student awakens to the fact that the self is unknown to the self. It is only once the student of the self begins to recognize that the darkness that is opposite them, the darkness that seems to pursue them at every avenue, regardless of how diligent the self has become at avoiding particular situation…it is only when that darkness in the other is recognized within the self, and the self begins to change the behavior, that suddenly the self is no longer pursued by those containing the same elements that have been ignored within the self.
It was in days of old – many, many, many, many lifetimes previous – that each foresaw this lifetime, understanding the work that need be done, recognizing the experiences that still remained upon the self’s agenda. It is from these higher realms that all planning - that which can be planned - takes place. It is in these lower realms that all plans are put asunder based upon the choice employed or failed to be recognized by the self. The feelings of desperation that each present have encountered upon awakening, as well as in recent times, indicates that the self is approaching firm positioning upon the path to return the self to divinity, to return the self to a path of service, which upon the earth equates to a life of sacrifice until self realization has been accomplished.
Failure to recognize the true desire of the self results in failure, for the self may not yet be prepared for this journey. The true desire of the self need be surveyed closely, to determine if exit is truly desired from this fourth kingdom as the common man. It is important for each to recognize the sensual nature of this existence – food, alcohol, drugs, materialism all encourage the sensual nature of the physical embodiment. Recognizing that the self is desirous of the material, of the sensual experience, ensures enjoyment of the life experience, whereas squelching of these desires merely result in failure. There is no punishment for the self who determines the materialism, the physicality - the sensual experience has not yet been fulfilled for the self. Much testing is provided to the student to make certain that that which falls from the lips is felt heart, mind, body, and spirit - for if it is not, failure lies ahead.
I am Osiris. I seek to draw forth all that which lies within, uncovering all that which is hidden from the self. Should I uncover desire for the physical, for the sensual, for the material experience, it is for the self to realize, to embrace this, and to seek that experience which shall fulfill that which is cried out for from deep within. As stated in previous teachings, the self has maintained desires, dreams, from lifetime to lifetime - many are embedded deeply within, unrecognizable to the self, until one day the self is cogitating and sees the self on a bungee ride, sees the self climbing Mt. Everest, sees the self flying to the moon, sees the self sailing upon the oceans. It is to recognize the desire, to draw it forth, to destroy the desire completely if it is merely a thought form that has yet to be examined. The student that fails to do so is the student that will fail the path, the lessons upon the path that will return the self to divinity.
I do not plan to offer you answer, for it is not my role as Teacher - it is to draw forth lesson. It is for the student to find answer within, for the answer does lie within with the Higher Self who has accumulated knowledge from all lifetimes, who awaits the calling of the self - seeking assistance, seeking information, seeking experience that opens the door to that which continues to be locked within.
It is important for each present to recognize that the projects formed for performance by all members of the community require the input of each individual – the thought-filled, focused, thinking that states, “I understand the tasking at hand. I am willing to provide that which is needed in order to see it through.” For it is often that the community falls away and the singular individual is left to finalize that which is needed for the community. Do you understand?
Sol: Yes I do – thank you.
Recognizing that the self prefers independent tasking due to the influence of the lesson plan should aid you my brother in overcoming the distaste of working on these projects with others, for each time all come together in order to accomplish, the energies can be lessened. Do you understand?
Sol: I believe I do – thank you.
They cannot, of course, be decreased my brother, if the attitude of the self is negative. Do you understand?
Sol: Yes I do – thank you.
It is to recognize that the lesson plan is focused upon failure – failure for the self, failure for others. It is important for the self to speak of judgment, to draw it forth, to illumine all judgments with the light of understanding of all that have been judged.
It is my desire to see the three joining together in order to accomplish more in future, for there is much to be done, there is much to be learned while going through the process – to flesh out the project, to understand that which is desired by the self, to understand and to welcome that which is desired by another without judgment. To understand the self, to understand the self’s desires requires dedication, commitment and an openness to scrutiny by another, by others; for the self is unable to see the self, the self is often unable to interpret the self’s desires without assistance. It is when another sees the self and questions the self that often protection and defense are utilized to thwart the assistance of another. Do you recognize this response for yourself my brother Sol An Ka?
Sol: Yes I do – thank you.
All within this group have very distinct strengths and very distinct weaknesses; you have been drawn together to serve each other – to strengthen that which is weak within the self by viewing the strength in another; rather, it is the lesson plan that encourages the self to judge the strength of another, to weaken them with the self’s thinking. It is this behavior that reinforces the lesson plan, causing the self to determine that working alone is preferable, more reliable, more enjoyable. In order to join together with others in order to accomplish the self must be willing to open the self to the scrutiny of another, to welcome the assistance and the guidance of another who may have learned a better way than that which is employed by the self. The self that is willing to adapt, to change in the moment is one who states, “I seek to join together with others in order to accomplish…it is my accomplishment that is being endorsed, not always the others.” The lesson plan of Denial, of Separation, makes this thinking difficult to achieve, for it is the self that always seeks endorsement at the expense of another. Do you understand?
Sol: I do – thank you.
It is my desire to teach you to see the self, to recognize the actions of the self that diminish the self’s possibilities.
The self that seeks to draw forth that which lies within must learn to focus, to focus upon the self completely, eliminating all outside distraction. The thoughts are gathered, examined, related to the lesson plan, the characters identified, the behaviors of the self now recognized time after time after time in the self’s current lifetime. The mind is puzzled, “How have I missed this behavior? How have I been so blind to this character, for the behavior is so very obvious to my sight at this time?” It is to recognize the veil that is placed between the self and the lesson plan, for the self believes the self to be good, the self believes that the self is doing that which is most appropriate for the self; for the self’s view has been hampered by the veil of darkness that remains until illumination is received. The self that learns to focus all attention upon the self, only focusing upon another when it is necessary to observe the self’s response – for it is this focus that will bring forth all that need be revealed so that future choice becomes possible. To provide the self with adequate time each day in silence, focused upon the self, inviting the thoughts, examining each to determine what the Teacher is trying to illustrate for the self is suggested.
The student often fails to recognize positive behaviors, attributes, belonging to the self - that which has been hard fought, easily forgotten in the maelstrom of attempting to ameliorate negative behaviors that remain. It is important for the self to recognize the accomplishments of the self, to continually bolster the self through recognition of behaviors that are different in a positive fashion from those behaviors that were exhibited previously. It is to not look to another, but rather to look to the self for this recognition.
Embracement does not mean that the self has healed the self completely; embracement simply means that the self recognizes that the self is indeed tied to the lesson plan and failure is often encountered due to the lack of awareness invested by the self. It is to embrace the self that I seek for each of you – to wrap the arms tightly about the self, to hold the self lovingly, particularly when the self is failing. It is to soften, to be kind and gentle with the self, to draw forth the intention - the desire of the self to learn, to know, to heal the self - recognizing that failure need not result in judgment, nor damaged feelings - recrimination need be aborted as soon as it is recognized, for it does not aid one in creating awareness in future; rather, it creates bitterness, resentment – energies that need be dealt with in future.
It is to trust the Teacher my sister, to recognize that that which is most important is being drawn forth to you time after time after time and when the time is most appropriate you will begin to recognize and you will begin to shift the behaviors due to this influence. It is the ego that is desirous of focusing outside of that which is desired most by the Teacher; it is to not second-guess the Teacher my sister – to focus upon that which is being brought forth to the self, to integrate wholly that which has been brought forth until the next and the next and the next issue has been brought to light for resolution.
It is to recognize the lesson plan, it is to draw forth the memories that are placed within pictures for the self and to categorize the behavior based upon the lesson plan; it is to maintain this running chart so that the picture of the self becomes clearer with each memory, so that the picture of the self becomes more complete and the story that has been created by the self – of who the self believed the self to be – can then be destroyed, for its falseness prohibits forward movement.
The student that fails to see that which is most important in the moment is the student that fails the lesson. Those portions of the self that have been damaged - that which can be referred to as negative, cumulatively referred to as the ego - seeks smallness, pettiness, that which is totally unimportant to the student who walks the path to healing; it is this that becomes the focus that is then amplified by the field belonging to the student’s lesson plan. Failure to gain awareness says that the student will fail the lesson, for the lesson will not be recognized - the focus has been skewed. Once the student recognizes the lesson and choice is made to continue to focus upon that which is demanded to be given all attention by the lesson plan, it is this student that fails to recognize the self in the moment, for the self has become the not-Self – that which is reflective of all that is negative, that which is disinterested in that which is positive.
The example provided by our sister (student) this day is one that has been encountered by all present; indeed, most of humanity experiences similar circumstance throughout the lifetime. The Teacher would refer to this experience as challenge; challenge to determine if the student sees the lesson clearly, challenge to see if the student is willing to abort field connection and to be different this time. Many opportunities are provided to the student to see that the self’s focus is indeed misfocused, drawn to that which is unimportant for the student who walks the path to healing. I am Osiris. I provide lessons to my students to determine if the will is indeed that which is needed, to determine if the student is capable of recognizing the lesson or if the ego will be indulged once again. Tell me, my sister (student) – was the ego indulged?
Student: Completely, sir.
It is important for each student to recognize that the connection to the fields belonging to the lesson plan of the self prohibits awareness; practicing how to regain awareness that has been lost is essential, for the more practice that the self has invested the more automatic the response becomes.
“Who am I, really?” - this question is asked by the student frequently once stepping forth upon the path to healing. “Who am I…really?” It is a frightening question for many, for it is asked when the self begins to realize that the self is not who the self has believed the self to be; the illusion of the self has been shattered and the mirror is showing the monster that the self has pretended belonged to others throughout the lifetime. The revelation of the self as monster oftentimes is debilitating, removing the self’s ability to eat, to sleep, to think, as the self did prior to these revelations; discomfort becomes a constant visitor - anxiety, restlessness, ever present. The self is agitated, irritated, frustrated, angry, and if the Teacher has been successful, sorrow-filled, to find that the self is indeed that which many have told the self previously was seen, yet the self discarded the words of the other, for the ego convinced the self that it was the words [that] described the other, certainly not the self; the self was merely looking out for the self, the self was merely doing what another would have done had the self not done it first. Rationalization is utilized to encourage lack of conscience for the self who has damaged another once again. Conscience is the state of mind that creates unease, that reminds the self of the words or the actions of the self, replaying it over and over and over again; a general sense of unease - of anxiety, restlessness, irritation, frustration, sorrow - come forth, encouraging the self to examine the experience more closely.
It is important to understand that the mind plays tricks upon the self. The memories of the self being broken, battered, devastated have been emphasized by the thinking for many years. The view of the other – diminished, less than that which was previously held when the relationship was viable, when love was present. It is the self’s inclination to diminish the other. It is the self’s inclination to minimize behaviors of the self. It is the self’s inclination to inform others of the suffering that has been experienced by the self and to forget that suffering may have been experienced by the other as well. It is the self’s inclination to forget the self’s behavior - to cast aside the self’s responsibility, to draw forth the input of the other, to amplify the behavior of the other, so that the self’s own behavior is dwarfed within its shadow. Do you understand?
Student: Yes, I do.
It is the romance that is associated with all stories that you tell of yourself and your previous relationships, my sister - that the self was damaged or the self was not, the other was unworthy, or the self was pained to admit that the self could not bear to remain in relationship with the other, due to the failings of the other. To recognize the failings of the self, the self must be willing to view the behaviors of the self - what it was that the self was seeking within relationship, what it is that the self received, what it is that the self has stated that the self failed to receive, what it is that the self decided that the relationship was no longer of value to the self because the self could not receive. Do you understand?
Student: I think so.
It was the ravenous monster that lied within - the parents could not fill, the friends could not fill, the other - the loved one, the beloved - could not fill, for this was never intended to be filled by another. Do you understand?
Student: I see. Yes. I wanted someone else to do what I was supposed to do for myself.
You are correct. It is focus upon the pain that endorses the pain. It is the passage of time alone and the fact that you were even unable to determine the exact time period my sister, that states that the self relies upon story to maintain the feeling that the self has been damaged, that the self has suffered. Do you understand?
Student: Yes.
It is when you look at the experience impartially, as the objective observer, that you will begin to see that you too had a period each month, my sister - yours was far more protracted than the other’s; those times when you felt joyous is when the other mirrored your behaviors back to you, in hope that you would see, you would begin to understand the darkness that was present for the self the majority of the time. It was the unhealed portion of the self that convinced the self that it was the other, never the self. Do you understand?
Student: I do. I suspected as much.
Failure to see the self has plagued you, my sister.
Student: Yes it has.
Possibility has been presented for this to be different in future. Do you agree?
Student: I agree. I am very grateful for that.
It is willingness that need greet the knowledge, for if the self is willing to see the self, the Teacher will draw forth adequate example for the self to be seen.
The mind is a marvelous consciousness – it is programmed to draw forth those lessons that are needed to teach the current self. It also maintains access to all previous selves, understanding the behaviors, the habits, the likes and the dislikes, the phobias, the addictions – all things that pertain to the self are catalogued by the mind. It is for the current self to open the drawer, to view the document in total to determine, “Is this who I seek to be in this lifetime? Of what value is this feature to my current self? What can it teach me? What has it taught me? Is it of value to me today? Will it be of value to me tomorrow? What value has it brought to me up to this moment? Will I retain it? Will I destroy it?” It is to retain focus upon the document in total – the document, which reveals the behavior of the self, until all these questions have been answered. It is to then embrace for the self that which has been revealed or it is to determine the plan that is most appropriate for the destruction of this behavior. The Teacher will reveal those things of value to the student, as it is believed to be appropriate; the student need be alert to those things that are beneficial to the self, for the Teacher does, on occasion, bring forth behaviors that can be considered as an asset - for recognition, for the embracement by the student.
Recognizing the self in others is tasking that few are proficient at performing; rather, the self is drawn to another who has similar interests, for the other reminds the self of the self and they are repelled by those behaviors that belong to the self that have yet to be revealed. Those who are viewed as obnoxious, controlling, conniving are those that are merely reflecting the image of the self’s own behavior back to the self. Failure to recognize the self in another ensures that lesson shall be drawn to the self so that the behaviors found to be so repugnant in another are soon revealed as belonging to the self as well. It is the inner Teacher’s duty to uncover all that which lies within, both positive and negative, until the self has embraced and decision made to retain the behaviors or to change. It is not the duty of the inner Teacher to accomplish change – it is the duty of the inner Teacher to accomplish recognition alone.
The consciousness that returns with the purpose to aid humanity is one who has done so previously; the desire burns brightly from within, the intensity increasing as the self begins to walk the path to healing. Impossible to understand, for it is this student that is informed that the self need be the focus; the self is confused, for the feeling overwhelms the self – the desire to aid humanity is one that cannot be squelched. It can only be placed on the periphery, drawn in by the student on occasion when the self begins to question the self’s choices. It is the Teacher that reminds the student what the self must be focused upon; this does not mean that others cannot be assisted. It does mean that the self need be the primary focus and all others secondary, for by taking the time that is needed to know and to heal the self, the service that is then offered to others will be of far greater value, eliminating the damage that is suffered by many who give all to others and none to the self. To serve is the desire of the consciousness that has chosen to return to this planet, this school of learning, to aid humanity.
It is willingness that need greet the knowledge, for if the self is willing to see the self, the Teacher will draw forth adequate example for the self to be seen. I am Osiris. I am love.
Who are you? It is this question that need be asked of the self virtually every moment of every day. Who am I? Who am I becoming? Who am I perceived to be? Is this perception accurate – does it reflect who I seek to become or is it a vision of that which I have always been? The student who has determined to step forth and to seek the presence of the Teacher is one who has been tested in many ways, many times, to determine if commitment equals expressed desire. The majority of students fail this measure, for the student is unaware that that which lies within the self is indeed the self of many previous incarnations; it is not the Teacher at all. Recognizing that the Higher Self is desirous of teaching the current self is important, critical in fact, if the student is truly desirous of knowing and healing the self. To understand the self is to be vigilant to all that which comes forth – the thinking reflects that which the Teacher seeks the attention of the self to be placed upon, so that true change may be experienced. The student that determines the course of action to be taken – that which will be studied, that which will be focused upon – is not the student that is prepared for the Teacher’s presence.
Sol: Would you repeat that last sentence please?
I will not repeat the last sentence my brother, but I shall restate it for you if that is acceptable.
To understand the myriad inner components is not possible without guidance; it is the inner Teacher that provides this guidance and it is provided in a way that success can be experienced if the student follows the guidance provided. It is the student that has determined the self’s course of action, those issues that the self is desirous of pursuing, those things that could be referred to as items of interest - items that pique curiosity, items that would enable the self to appear knowledgeable with others. The student that decides the course of action to be taken – that which shall be studied, that which shall be pondered, that which shall be reviewed, ignoring the guidance provided by the Teacher – is the student that is determined to pursue that which has been pursued in previous lifetimes: the acquisition of knowledge.
To recognize who the self truly is requires that one gaze inward to see that the self is uncertain. To see the turgid, black depths one must be willing to swim - to swim without a life preserver that maintains one’s presence upon the surface. The self who prefers to remain upon the surface is the self that seeks guidance from others and waits and waits and waits for the experience to be drawn to the self, so that the self may see it, so that the self may choose to be different or to respond in similar fashion to the previous opportunities. The Teacher prefers that the student dive on occasion, to bring forth that which is known to be detrimental to the self, to expose it to the light, to expose it to the self’s scrutiny, to determine what need be done – how can this difficulty, this negativity, be transmuted into understanding, into that which has taught me how to understand another who may be encountering the same difficulty? Failure to draw forth that which is known to lie within indicates to the Teacher that the self is not truly desirous of learning - it is the wait and see perspective of the student, it is the ignoring and disinterested perspective of the Teacher.
The relationship of the Teacher and the student is comprised of time passage that is not fathomable to the human; the Teacher is fully cognizant of the weaknesses and the strengths of the student – far more cognizant than the student is of the self, for the student has been tricked by the ego, by the lesson plan, by those surrounding the self, that tell the self that the self is indeed acceptable, the self is indeed love, the self is indeed light, the self is indeed a good person and need not pursue change. The Teacher understands that many layers must be uncovered prior to the student awakening to the love that the Teacher has shown the self, bringing the self to the moment where recognition is achieved, where Teacher and student stand consciousness to consciousness welcoming each other once again with recognition; this moment is desired equally by Teacher and student.
Recognition of who the self has been is vital to understanding the self. Failure to recognize the responses of the self to the lesson plan results in failure of future lesson. Once the self has seen the self, has understood that the self’s response was guaranteed by the lesson plan – it is then that choice need be made to be different, to shift the self’s view, to shift the self’s response, or to embrace and endorse similar behaviors in future.
The student who walks the path to healing has stated that progress is desired in this lifetime. The teacher has been drawn to the self and the Teacher draws forth lesson after lesson after lesson after lesson, exhausting the student, pummeling the student so that the student cannot fail to see the self, to see the behavior that is resulting in continued failure of all lessons drawn forth. The student who has provided permission to the inner Teacher to draw forth the teacher that will aid the self in knowing, understanding, and beginning to heal the self is one who is never abandoned. In the deepest, darkest moments of self-revelation, of self-hatred, the Teacher is present, informing the student that the self must be seen, that the self must be repulsed by the self, that the self must be ashamed, the self need feel all emotions that will aid the self in making the choice to be different. The goal is not to punish the student. The goal is not to cause suffering. The goal is not to overwhelm the student. The goal is to aid the student in arriving at the moment where choice can be made that will endorse progress upon the path.
It is important for the student to understand that the Teacher provides all that is needed by the student; the student need only have the thought unconsciously and the Teacher has been informed of that which is needed. It is in this way that the Teacher presents to the student those things that are needed in order to experience forward progress upon the path to healing, for the self knows that which is needed; it is the Teacher that guides the student, the self, to knowing and to healing the self by utilizing that which is known by the self. To trust in the self, knowing that the self has the answer to all things and to recognize that the self has been provided with Teacher to aid the self, to guide the self to understanding, is critical.
Failure to believe in the self thwarts the self’s progress – it is this that is the cause of Te' Auna’s stasis; she does not believe in the self. She seeks outwardly for confirmation, stating that the self cannot believe in the self unless another has confirmed that the self is correct. What she does not yet understand is that all things have been experienced – she knows that this is true but it has not been fully embraced; therefore, it has yet to be understood. Recognizing that the self has the answer and that the Teacher will draw forth the answer is important for all students to embrace. It is the Teacher’s duty to draw forth all that which lies within – both darkness and light, introducing to the current self all that which has been earned previously - again, whether darkness or light.
Recognition that the self is the most important component, that the Teacher is secondary – is necessary, for the Teacher can provide all that the student needs and the student can still feel empty, the student can still feel deep desire, deep lack. It is important for the self to shift the focus, to shift the view, to change the thinking from, “I have hardly anything that I need” to “I have everything that I could possibly ever desire.” All else is false; all else is illusion.
That which is needed by each student has been determined by the inner Teacher, drawing many together is done in order to aid each; it is the responsibility of the inner Teacher to guide the self, to bring the self to those others who will present what is needed to enable forward progress should the self learn. The majority of students upon the planet are consumers of knowledge, yet fail to convert the knowledge to wisdom; rather, they graze upon the fields of knowledge continuously, repeatedly drawing in the same knowledge time after time, conveyed in words somewhat different, yet the meaning, when revealed, is exactly the same. The self fails to see the message that is being brought forth and continues to partake of knowledge at greater numbers of fields, continuing to consume that which has yet to be understood. It is to recognize that when the self is ready, that the words matter not - the self will turn inward, the self will look outward - the self will seek assistance when the self is ready. As long as the self maintains a sphere of privacy, as long as the self keeps negativity – negative feelings, negative judgments – to the self, the self is telling the inner Teacher, “I am not yet ready”, for the ego holds dominion and the ego has determined that another need not know the self; in fact, the ego has decided that the self will not know the self.
It is important for each student to recognize that the ego is merely the thinking - that which has been created by the self and all previous selves to maintain the sphere of protection, the castle of defense, that prohibits all others entry for fear that the self may be damaged. Love does not fear; love welcomes all. Love is open and embraces all things; love needs no protection or defense. When the student determines that the self’s desire is to be love, the first line of attack is to uncover, to identify the thinking that prohibits the self from being love.
I am Osiris. I am love, unconditional. It is my honor to assist all those who step forth stating their desire to know and to heal the self. Recognizing that the ego is negativity - is not love, and is not desirous of the self experiencing love should assist the self in recognizing that the kind voice – the one that informs the self in the words that the self seeks most to hear – is the voice that need be eliminated. As I have stated in previous teachings, it is the ego’s voice that is preferred by the student; it is the Teacher’s voice – whether the inner Teacher or the physical Teacher – that is judged, that is determined to be not what the self is desirous of hearing. It is to recognize that the intention of the self – to know and to heal the self – has been heard and the inner Teacher has called forth the physical teacher or has stepped forth to teach the student. The voice utilized by the Teacher is intended to draw forth the ego, so that the story of defense, the need for protection, can be destroyed. If the student fails to see the damage that is desired by the ego and fails to abort the behaviors demanded by the lesson plan, the student will fail to achieve the goals stated by the intention.
It is to recognize that the self determines when the physical body, the emotional and the mental bodies, can begin to function cooperatively together; when the mental body stops amplifying the messages, when the emotional body stops creating confusion, when the physical body starts to inform the self more reliably of that which is needed. In order to do so, the self need step forth and state, “I seek understanding of each body. I seek understanding of the programming that prohibits the bodies from operating independent of the lesson plan. I embrace that the lesson plan is the cause of upset, of discomfort, of failure to recognize, failure to understand who I am not.” Failure to recognize the lesson plan provides permission to the inner Teacher to continue to draw forth to the self those individuals that will provide example, experience that is needed, in order for the self to see the self more clearly.
The student who walks the path to healing begins this path focused outwardly the majority of the self’s waking hours. As the self becomes more dedicated to knowing and to healing the self the focus begins to turn inward, until the majority of the self’s time is recognizing and identifying lesson presentation by focusing inward. The self that continues to seek outwardly, to state that the goal of the self is to learn so that the self can teach, is one that will continue to fail to focus appropriately when the opportunity is provided to be different. It is a slight shift in attitude that need be experienced by the student – that which speaks of selfishness to many is that which ensures success for the student of the self - to be focused upon the self so that the self may learn. Recognizing that the self may never provide teaching to another is important.
I am Osiris. I am love. It is my counsel to each of you to focus upon the self at all times. “What does this lesson mean to me? What am I to be learning? How should I be responding? How am I failing? How can I be different?” It has been my honor to be with you this day.
I should like for all in attendance to focus upon the self, focus upon the heart, to ask the self – “Am I walking the path that is most desired by myself or am I filling my time? Am I consumed with experience – the desire to garner experience?” There is no right or wrong way of being. It is to know the self, to understand the self’s desires - to understand that which motivates the self – that which the self is seeking; for once understood, success draws nearer, for the self is able to garner the endorsement of the inner Teacher and energies unfathomable become available to the self who has sought the guidance, the counsel, the endorsement of the inner Teacher. It is the inner Teacher that provides that which is needed to the self - the experience of previous lifetimes where the self has learned all things, has experienced all things - this knowledge, once made available to the self who knows, who understands the self’s focus, the self’s desire –all things now become possible.
To know the self is to see the self, to see the self is to understand the self, to understand the self is to learn, to learn is to teach – this is the obligation set by each student as they walk the path to healing.
It is for each, indeed for all students, to recognize that those surrounding the self that are providing the self with their estimation – what it is that they see in you, as service, whether the self finds it to be valid or not - is critical to the student who walks the path to healing. For if the self is unwilling to embrace that the self is indeed seen differently than the way the self sees the self, then it may easily be construed that the self is not yet prepared to be walking the spiritual path to return to the self’s divinity.
It is to recognize that the damaged portions of the self are utilized by the Teacher, drawing forth others that suffer similarly, to aid the self in seeing the self; it is indeed to remember learn/teach, teach/learn – that as the self sees the self in another, recognizes the self, understands the root cause and determines that change is not only desirous but needed, that the self can then turn to the other who has provided the service to the self and to share with them what has been seen. It is for the self to determine if the other self would be open to the self’s view and to recognize that if the information is poorly received that the self may be the first to have broached the subject, the topic, with the other. The self has indeed paved the way for another in future - another who may be more successful than the self. It is to recognize that service to another repays service received by the self.
Recognizing the self is the goal whenever judgment is present, for the self has indeed been spotted and the Teacher is attempting to bring recognition forth. I am Osiris. I am the Teacher of all of humanity. It is my duty to draw forth that which lies within, for all those consciousnesses that present the self, stating the self’s desire to return to the consciousness’ original state – that which can be regarded as divinity.
What does it mean to know the self - to truly know the self, to delve deeply beneath the façade that has been created to keep all others outside, that has been created to make the self more acceptable to the self and potentially to others? Why would one truly seek to know the self? If the self is happy, it is unlikely that the self would delve deeply within to determine who the true self is. It is the self that is unhappy - the self that typically refers to the self as miserable - that begins to see that the self is not who the self projects outwardly, the misery painted in bright colors of sarcasm, provided to others so that it is more palatable. Even the self begins to believe that maybe the self has earned this misery.
Failure to see the self interferes with one’s ability to be different. Failure to welcome the assistance of another informs others that the self is not desirous of seeing the self as the self is seen by another; the self prefers the self’s view. To know, to heal the self requires commitment, dedication and will to overcome the darkness that lies within, that triggers the lesson plan. It is the habit of the self to welcome the lesson plan, to allow informed response to react, rather than thinking, rather than aborting habit, informed response, with changed behavior. Until the student recognizes that the self’s responses are programmed for failure it is unlikely that the student will engage the will and begin to demand choice for the self. Recognizing that others are placed about the self to aid the self, as long as the self welcomes the assistance, is necessary, for the student that attempts to walk this path alone is the student that fails.