I am with you. My brother Loereve? Are you present?

Loereve: Yes

Are you listening closely?

Loereve: Very closely

Could you open the heart please? [cough]

I should like for you to work on opening the heart my brother, to focus upon the heart, to state, “The barricade must be eliminated.” Do you agree to do so?

Loereve: Yes I do

It is to recognize that the pain, the suffering that has been experienced by the self is all due to failure of the self to understand the lesson, to seek assistance in understanding the lesson, to draw forth the feelings and to expel them. Rather, much has been repressed; therefore, it remains within and is a caustic wound. Do you understand?

Loereve: Not fully, no.

It is to make the recognition my brother that you do not speak of your hurts. You prefer for the other to be comfortable. Do you agree?

Loereve: Yes I do.

This does not allow you to release the energies or to move towards forgiveness of the self and the other when necessary; rather, what has been placed is yet another layer, another barrier around the heart, for the self has decided, “I shall not go there again for I do not wish to experience similarly.” It is this that prohibits you from loving another, from being open and honest with another; for the self has judged that the other will judge the self, that the other will misunderstand the self, therefore sharing is minimized. Do you understand?

Loereve: Yes

It is to put the self out there so to say, to make the recognition that until the self is honest, until the self speaks openly, that the self will continue to be uncomfortable, that the self will continue to occasionally feel unwanted. Do you understand?

Loereve: Yes

It is outside the fence that you have placed yourself my brother. Do you understand what I mean when I make this statement?

Loereve: I’m sorry I do not.

It is easy for you to understand if you understood all else that I have stated my brother. I shall give you a moment to think about it. Do you need for me to repeat the statement?

Loereve: That I’m outside the fence so to speak.

It is you that has placed the self outside the fence - on the outside looking in. Do you understand?

Loereve: I have to admit, unfortunately I don’t. I don’t.

I ask you – to study these words for there is blockage that prohibits you from recognizing the self and the self’s actions that draws forth to the self the experience that is needed in order to learn. It is loneliness that is felt, it is the feeling of being unwanted, the feeling of not quite fitting in. Do you understand these feelings my brother? Have you experienced them?

Loereve: Very much so – yes.

Do you recognize that it is your behavior that has placed you outside the fence - your failure to share, your failure to be genuine, your failure to be honest and open?

Loereve: Yeah, I can see that.

Have you changed in this area this year my brother?

Loereve: I don’t know if I have.

Do you find the self contributing to conversations more frequently? Do you find the self sharing deeply and from the heart in order to aid another? Would you have been comfortable in doing so one year previous?

Loereve: One year previous – no…moreso today…yes. Could I improve? I would say definitely.

It is to recognize and to inform the teacher when the self believes that the self is different. Do you understand my brother?

Loereve: Different how?

I am telling you who you are. Is this who you are at this time my brother? You are not listening closely. I am telling you who you are – that you are not open, that you are not honest, that you have placed yourself outside the fence. What do you say to me my brother Loereve?

Loereve: I would say that you are correct.

Indeed, we have many lessons ahead of us my brother, for recognition has yet to be made that the self is indeed different. Do you understand?

Loereve: Yes

In the coming weeks and months I should like for you to concentrate your efforts upon standing in your own power, speaking your truth – that which is felt by the self, stating when you believe another is treating you unjustly, unfairly, or has judged you due to who you have been versus who you are. It is to recognize that the self has placed the barricade and only the self can deconstruct this barricade. Do you understand?

Loereve: Yes I do

It is to listen to the physical teacher my brother, to listen deeply. It is to journal the experiences completely, asking the self questions and then answering them, for it is only in this way that knowledge is drawn forth from deep within. Do you understand?

Loereve: Yes

Are you willing to do so?

Loereve: Yes I am

Each day my brother?

Loereve: Yes I am

I seek commitment. Are you providing me with such?

Loereve: Yes

You have addressed the lessons presented to you this year. I have gone very slowly with you my brother. Do you seek to continue with this slow pace?

Loereve: I think a little faster would be in order.

And so we shall endeavor to provide more lesson.