mountain tops - PTH is like climbing a mountain until you see the light

The Path to Healing

Teachings - The Student

The first teaching this day shall address how to support one that does not seek support. It is a long and arduous journey that the student sets forth upon when first determining that the life experience is unfavorable, that the self need change in order to experience satisfaction, in order to experience that certain something that the self is unable to identify; yet, the heart yearns deeply, without rest, in search of the mystery that lies within existence - love. It is important for each student to recognize that the lesson plan has provided the self with obstacle, barricade - that which can be visualized as the wall around the self, the fortress - prohibiting entry to all those except those who are deemed to be weaker than the self. It is my desire to bring to the attention of each that the self has isolated the self, that the self has embraced and is desirous of the imposition of the lesson plan, which states that the self is superior, that the self is indeed an excellent student, that the self can teach the self, that the self is not in need of any other’s intervention, that the self does indeed view another’s view as interference, as inconsequential to the self, for the self is unique, the self is different, the self is like no other.

The Student, this lesson plan causes the self to believe that knowledge is all that is needed and then the self will heal the self - the self will find the self’s own way, the self will determine what is needed and will then share it with others - to prove that the self is clever indeed. It is the student that follows this curriculum that ends up floundering upon the path. The niche is carved, the path, the groove is walked within day after week after month after year, wondering why progress has not yet been made, for the self has tried everything the self can think about - that the self can think of, that the self is capable of bringing forth - and nothing has caused forward progress. The lesson plan of Denial contains the lesson plan of the Student.

It is for you to recognize that knowledge is not king. Feeling is the goal. It is to inform the self to feel when the self is engaged - to feel the discomfort, to watch the impact of the fields upon the self when the self becomes engaged, to recognize the automatic choice of the self to disengage, to run, to hide, to put the agreeable face forward in order to prohibit true recognition, realization, and integration of the lesson. It is to feel the energies, to recognize them, so that the self can choose more wisely in future.

To trust the self more than the self trusts another – would you say that this is a worthy goal, my brother Sol An Ka?

Sol: Yes I do

My brother Loereve?

Loereve: I think it would be a prerequisite because often if you cannot trust yourself then you quite often cannot trust another.

These are words my brother. Are they wisdom for you?

Loereve: Sometimes yes, sometimes no. My biggest failings have been when it is sometimes no.

Would you say that the ‘sometimes no’ is greater or less than the ‘sometimes yes’?

Loereve: I would say greater.

It is to listen to the words closely, to draw them into the mind, to take them beyond knowledge, “I shall trust myself primarily. I shall ask others for assistance always. I shall then share my own thinking with the other and invite them to show me where my thinking has faltered.”

It is disagreement I am lodging with you my brother Loereve, for you trust the self beyond all others. You do not expose the thinking to another that you believe will be disagreed with. Am I correct?

Loereve: Yes, you are.

It is this safe harbor that the ego has utilized for many lifetimes; the judgment that another will make personal your failing rather than finding it to be of interest, rather than being desirous of discussion, rather than learning each from each. These thoughts rarely occur to you my brother, for you feel that all will be personal, that the self will be attacked, that the self will be rejected. Do you agree?

Loereve: Yes, I believe you are correct.

It is to recognize my brother Loereve, that the trust has been placed with the ego. The true self – that portion of the self that is humble – is only allowed to come forth once the self believes that resignation is necessary. Am I correct?

Loereve: As far as I can tell, yes.

Open the heart my brother.

Recognizing that the ego only allows the self to speak that which is tried and true, that which has been utilized in the past. Do you understand my words?

Loereve: Yes I do.

When you are resigning, the same words tumble forth, the same knowledge brought front and center, regurgitated for the other so that the boundary may be laid, prohibiting the self from feeling in the moment that which need be felt, for the ego is busy rebuilding the perimeter that has been damaged by the other. The words are repeated by the ego. The self believes that the self understands and assistance is cut short. The ego has won once again. The perimeter has been rebuilt; the next and the next and the next shall have the same equal difficulty getting inside - in an attempt to aid you, in an attempt to clear the vision so that you may see that your trust has been placed with the ego. Do you understand my words, my brother Loereve?

Loereve: Yes I do. I haven’t really looked at it like that but that’s a very succinct way of putting it. Thank you.

Do you understand the words I have spoken to our brother Loereve, my brother Sol An Ka?

Sol: Yes I do. Thank you.

Do you see yourself?

Sol: Yes I do.

What is it that you see my brother?

Sol: I see that I sometimes trust myself too much and that I don’t seek an evaluation of what I believe from the other and to accept whatever faults they may find in my logic or in my belief. And I tend to want to override them and stay with what I believe is the truth and therefore, I miss the opportunity to join with another and I miss the opportunity to have help in refining what it is that I found initially within myself, within my ego. I believe that I’ve gotten better about seeking assistance from other people but I have a way to go. I know that. I am complete with my answer.

It is important my brother for you to see yourself, to see yourself at all times, particularly when you are attempting to convince another that no error has been made on your part or that you are being blamed inappropriately or that you feel accused or that you feel defense and protection have suddenly become vital to your survival. It is to recognize that viewpoints are opinion – they are not truth; often they are not even the truth of the individual speaking. Do you understand?

Sol: Yes I do. Thank you.

It is important for you to approach all things objectively, for that is indeed the goal of all students – to be the student prepared for debate.